FEELS

I have closed my oneup's account. I waste 500$. After read by internet about this account kind and theirs problems ( i.e. bad to IRPF, High prices) I prefer my old broker account. I can to have tada fee only wiht 100$ or more of balance (whit Oneup was 87$/month). Only I have to pay external fee of 5$/month and I can simulate all tha I want. I have many software trading platforms. I in June, I will trade with micro futures, only 0.50$/tick in YM index.
By the momente I am very disappointed with myself. I feel really bad. I am thinking my time is over. I do not know  to do.
I hope all this stage go out. Early!

AND RETURN TO THE SAME...

This sensation is known. When I am euphoric is when more becareful there is to have.
This morning I wrote the before entry . Now after I trade have to say that I lose my acccount again.
I am an undisciplined in this area. In other things of my live I am very disciplined but here I can not. I am tired, fustrated and desperate.
I don't know what to do. I don't have more forces.
I have spent more than 17 year of my life and that is very hard.
Probably I will try one more time but I feel this time must be different becasuse if not I will end in the same way.

If I am not beable to cut or respect my stop the market will put in your site.

RETURN

Why not? I am trying to improve my English and today I have told me: "why don't you write in this forgotten blog?"
And here I am.  My last entry was two years ago. Haven't been many changes from then. I am follow losing money in the markets but not much. From I discovered funded accounts my invest has go down. Althought 2,000$/year isn't a little number...
Never mind. Now is a new cicle. Today my funded accounts starts sice cero. I have to focus in my own system and fullfil my rules.
For me this blog will be a space where I learn English and Markets. It will be a Journal.
I hope that it will be my last try. Let's go!!